I see you trying hard to calm
Your mind messed up due to your fucked up life. Staying awake causes your body to heat up and sometimes anxiety kicks in increasing your heart beats. Well. I don’t exactly remember what’s going on in your life, but I shall like for you to open up and talk to someone. Why? Because it helps!
It’s 3 AM and I’m still awake because, like you even I am trying to figure out things. I know that the past haunts you, but you don’t need to run away from it. Just let it be. I’ve been there where you are now. Trust me, you’re not the only person going through something like this. It’s just a phase and it will pass. And if anyone hasn’t told you this in a while, then please hear and believe me- You will be okay. Things will get better and everything will fall back into place.
Life goes on and although you may fail to realise this now, but one day everything will make sense. Everything! This once just hold on to yourself for a little longer than a little while. Okay?
I love you and I’m always here for you.