Depression- One

Depression: A mental health disorder characterised by persistently depressed mood or loss of interest in activities, causing significant impairment in daily life.

Symptoms includeSocial isolation, Behavioral changes, Lack of energy and concentration power, Excessive crying, Feelings of emptiness, Worthlessness and hopelessness, Overthinking, insomnia and it can also be associated with thoughts of suicide.

Treatment- The mainstay of treatment is usually medication, talk therapy or a combination of the two.


Dear friend,
I am sorry. Lately I haven’t been the person you’ve known for the past few years. My behaviour has changed a lot and I can feel, when you look at me, that you are drifting away from me. I never wanted to push you away, but I couldn’t have hurt you by staying close, so I chose the other way around. It’s gonna be difficult for you to understand, but, believe me, it’s even more difficult for me to explain this as even I fail to understand myself. Amidst the darkness surrounding me, I don’t want to lose you as I lost me.
I can’t remember when it began, but the last three months, particularly, have been really difficult for me.
I may appear normal from outside, but the air around suffocates me. I get frustrated and annoyed with people for absolutely no reason. My mood changes on a moment to moment basis and even if I want to, I can’t control these emotions rather they seem to control me. The smallest of chores seem like an insurmountable mountain because my mind, like an endless spiral, always brings me back to the same black spot.
I don’t feel okay around voices and noises. I wish to be left alone, but my shattered world begins to fall apart when I am alone. I look in the mirror and without any apparent reason, I start crying and I cry a lot. You did ask what’s bothering me, buddy it is me who is bothering me. I am not sad, tired, or exhausted rather I feel paralyzingly numb. At times I breathe consciously to feel my heart beat and move my cage a little. I am alive but I feel dead from inside. The void in me keeps expanding on its own, It is like feeling everything, yet nothing at the same moment.
You know, Often the ceiling becomes my residing space and I spend a lot of time, almost every night, in there. I love the way this fan hangs above- far away from all the chaos. I crave such peace, man. Too much light turns into darkness, remember? I too have lost the sight of light, my friend. The gleam of hope is disappearing now and It is becoming difficult to drag myself through this, every day. Anyway.
Take care,
~Your friend


This letter is my way of understanding and making people understand what depression is. Did the letter help in understanding how a person dealing with depression feels? Your criticism, suggestion, or opinion is exactly what I need. I am waiting to hear from you in the comments section!


Take care,

❀

34 Comments Add yours

  1. vampi300 says:

    This is so well written. You have captured the feelings perfectly.

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    1. Ayush says:

      Thank you so much! πŸ™‚

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  2. Nawazish says:

    Very well written!!

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  3. I can relate this. Gave me a goosebumps. Penned down beautifully! 😊

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    1. Ayush says:

      Thank you soo much! 😊🌹

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  4. Its actually a true tale. People who are in depression appear normal, with lots of turbulence in mind. I am happy to hear, that this is just a made up tale for all of us. But the way you have expressed it, let me tell you, its very deep and will help us understanding people around us in a better way. Have a good day.

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    1. Ayush says:

      Thank you soo much for reading and reviewing it. Take care πŸ™‚

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  5. Thanks for the raise and sharing
    Stay happy safe and healthy

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    1. Ayush says:

      Thnks to you for reading… You too take care! 😊🌈

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  7. Simon says:

    It’s actually matches with depression feel, each person undergo this phase feels different, It’s a good try Ayush and most of the depressed people definitely go through all this, except few. Well done.. Add more points on how to overcome and what are all things to do to overcome such.. This kind of posts should not end like this. βœ¨πŸ‘

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    1. Ayush says:

      Yeah I’ve tried only to cover the major symptoms. Sure. I’ve to write few more letters… That’s why ‘One’ in the title. Thank you for the review πŸ™‚

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      1. Simon says:

        That’s good Aayush ✨✍️ Keep up.. looking fwd to next part…

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      2. Ayush says:

        Okay🌈

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  8. Are you okayyyy? πŸ™€πŸ˜Ώ This letter gave me goosebumps. People going through quite literally go through hell every second! Thanks for making me understand their psychology.
    (If you are the person in this letter na, just beware, punches are coming your way. πŸ˜€πŸ‘Š)

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    1. Ayush says:

      Yep. Haha tried to place myself in that place… Bachho pe haath ni uthate!!! 😢

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      1. Oh, thank God. I really hope you never get into this kind of situation. Talk to me if you ever feel depressed. I’ll try to ruin things even more. 🀠

        Also, mai uthaungi haath. Result aane do tumhara fir aaungi maarne. πŸ‘ŠπŸ˜€

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      2. Ayush says:

        Ohkay!
        BilkulπŸ˜‚βš‘

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      3. Google told me it’s going to be out before 15th. I’m counting the days. πŸ˜’ Tick tick one, huh!

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      4. Ayush says:

        πŸ˜‚I’ll put the result here!

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      5. 🀭 Fail mat hojaaana. 😈

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      6. Ayush says:

        Nahi houngaπŸ˜’

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      7. 🧐 Dekhte hain naa. Ab do teen din hi bache.

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      8. Oye! Tell me you didn’t fail or I’ll break your legs. πŸ˜€πŸ˜’πŸ‘Š

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      9. Ayush says:

        94% aaye…

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      10. Whaaaaattt!! πŸ₯Ί Oh my God! Congratulations. 😭❀️ Toppee nikle tum toh. I was expecting 75 something. Huh. Give me chocolates and party now. IIT me bhi select ho jaaoge itna achha percentage aaya hai. πŸ˜’ I’m jealousss.

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      11. Ayush says:

        πŸ˜‚Aisa kuch ni hai… IIT and Cbse exams me 0 and infinity ka difference hai! I am still confused about my future. College admissions me bi itni uncertainty hai kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha + exams kab honge kaise honge kuch clear nahi hai… Internship kaisi chal rahi aapki?

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      12. πŸ˜’ Don’t worry na. You’ll get the best college. I’m so sure about that. πŸ‘Š
        Meri Internship toh bohot badhiya. New new cheezein pata chal rahi, bohot saare wordpress plugins, keyword research ke tareeke, sales letter likhna, marketing etc. I even published three articles on his website today. 🀩 Maza aaraha hai but I get super tired. Doston se baat karne time hi nai hai zara bhi. Tumko hello bolne aagayi bas idhar. 😿 Kaise ho? Did relatives call on your result?

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      13. Ayush says:

        Hope so🌻
        Omg kaafi busy😍
        Relatives ko personally result bhej diya mostly kisine call ni kiya then πŸ™‚
        Mai theek. Aap bataie?

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      14. Oyyyye! How are you doing? πŸ™„ Yaar, I literally can’t find a balance between work and life. Din bhar chala jaata hai mera Internship me. Ek mahina complete hone wala parso. It’s really interesting and everything. But personal life hi nai bachi kuch. πŸ˜‚ I miss our nonsense comments so much. 😀 WordPress tak aane ka bhi nai mila time. Aur relatives call karte hain achha result aane pe. 93% pe toh ghar aa jana tha sabko. πŸ˜’

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      15. Ayush says:

        I am not doing anything at all. Padhai bilkul nahi. Omg internship me bhi itna kaam karna hota? Abhi aap aur padhai kroge na? Baapre itna kuch😢

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      16. Hello! Ye wali internship kaafi hectic thi, but I learnt so much. Abi khatam hogayi. πŸ˜€ I wanted to prsue PhD but ab mann nahi horaha. πŸ˜› Tum kya karte rehte ho? Do padhai naa. Admissions ka kya hua, I want to know everything. :/

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      17. Ayush says:

        Aapne to kaam kar liya. Padhai around 2 months se ni kar rahe… Exams bi postpone hore ni hore next year kya hoga kuch samajh ni aa raha. Novels pdhe thode. And kuch chizo ke baare me search kie… Ab lag raha filhal college pe focus krna hi sahi rhegaπŸ˜…πŸ˜‚Aap ab kya karengi? Padhai? Kitna padhna padta hume😭

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      18. Haha, yaar mera bhi same haal hai. There’s a debate going on if final year exams should be taken or not. Aur mai sab syllabus hi bhul gayi itne months me toh. 😐 I’m again looking for some work from home thing. Free baithna nai jamm raha aajkal. 🀣
        Ohhho! What novels have you read? And blogging kar rahe ho aajkal? I’ll come and read everything soon. 🧐 I’m not getting the himmat to finally come back here, but you better be regular on WordPress. Keep writing poems.
        Haaan, but college pata nahi kab open ho na, tab tak maze karo. 🀭 Girlfriend mili ya nahi koi?
        Mera naa studies ka mann nahi hai aage. But let’s see. Kuch toh kar hi lenge. Uncertainty hai abi har cheez me. πŸ˜ͺ

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